错的感觉，感觉的错 The Wrong Feeling

错的感觉，感觉的错 The Wrong Feeling

Its a song I made just using a day, its about what I experience in life. Its a sad love song which the feeling is wrong, at the wrong moment, with the wrong person.
用一天完成的一首歌，是生命的经历。是首真实故事的情歌，表达错情，错的时候，错的人。

无法忘记你漂亮的容颜
无法忘记你动人的双眼
你和我在图书馆里面
一起面对面
那时光 实在怀念

无法忘记你漂亮的侧脸
无法忘记你嘴唇的香甜
那一天我们分手前
决定不再眷恋
那一段 不可能的相恋

我们的感觉 只是个错觉
难受的滋觉

我们的遇见 只是在昨天
没想过今天

曾经的承诺 已变成解脱
我知道爱上你是大错特错

After the fellowship at Starbucks

I am just sharing something sincerely, from my heart.

Do you ever feel like your life is a mess?
Everything you did is wrong or failure.
Nothing to be proud of. Dissapointments.
Studies, work, relationships, religion, your own personal life.
A total mess.

You know, GOD loves us so much.
He puts people in our lives to mould, change and influence us.

You think that you had the worst relationship, or the person you love never love you.
But you don't know that GOD thinks that you deserved a better one, and he wants you to learn to be stronger. 

You think that you never achieve anything yet in your life, couldn't see your future, despite your talents, ambition and potential.
But you don't know that GOD has an awesome plan for you, your destiny lies right in front of you, but its just not the time yet.

You think that you can't study well, and getting good results are impossible.
But you don't know that GOD can grant you wisdom, faith and success. All you need to do is just a little more hardwork, have faith and pray!

You think that you always face those annoying people, problems or events in your life and its really depressing.
But you don't know that GOD puts those people in your life to change your character, problems to make you tougher and events to make you stronger to overcome them.

You think that you have a dream, that is nearly impossible and people laughed at you.
But you don't know that GOD is already preparing you for a greater destiny, as he sees far more than what we can see.

We are living in a small world, a blue sphere with people of limited thoughts, knowledge and wisdom. The universe is so wide, as well as GOD's intelligence and capability.

I am not sharing religion.
GOD loves you.
Just pray, for anything that happens in your life.
You might not know what GOD will do. =)


Thanks for Samuel and Noel for motivating me when I was down, spiritually and mentally. I wrote this after the fellowship I had with them.
They influenced me, in a good way. I prayed, and I'm right back to the right track.
How bout you？

Photo taken by a polaroid camera, cool huh=)

A song to my mum- Instrumental

A song to my mum- Instrumental
Basicallly I went to a studio to record this, and I think i can do better as this is the first time i record in a studio! Thanks for Jia Ruey and Reuben for giving me the chance to do this.haha. Comment and share my music=)

Imma heartbreaker.

The moment I first saw you.
You are stunning, I was attracted by your natural wavy dark hair, waving while you walked past by me, like a gentle wind kissed my face.
I felt like earth losing gravity, and I know its insanity, saying that you're going to be, the one and only.

The moment you walked towards me.
You smiled, and the heavens were brought down to earth that moment.
I was a coward, ignored the most dazzling smile in the world by looking at the grey floor.

The first time I sat so near to you.
That table in the library, that girl sitting in front of me.
Your voice was as sweet as honey, and by saying that it's not geli.
I looked through your eyes, my view quickly moved aside. I was so so so nervous.
Your eyes are the most breath-taking of all,  so pretty, so lively. Its like they can talk.

Then I had the courage to know you.
Facebook, phone number, texts, calls.
We meet, we're happy. We got too much alike, we thought.
We're going to take the next step..

BUT I KNOW I CANNOT. I know what is going to happen and it will repeat again. She can't handle that well in the end. But my feelings were strong for her, I followed my instinct, and I confessed that I like her. She didn't trust me, I made her to believe me.
It was her first relationship, it was my fifth official relationship. We're together. I had experience in relationships, she didn't. I thought I can handle it well. Well.

It was the best feeling on earth to be with her. I felt that I'm the luckiest man in the world.
It was the sweetest moment of my life.

Problems occurred, we never fight though. I told her its normal to have problems, didn't know know that it was me.
7 months and it ended.
The reason is me. I suck. I hurt her too much. I ruined her life.
I was being a coward, selfish, not gentleman at all. I mean, I realized this before. But when these became the reasons we broke up, I realized a lot.

I am totally not ready for relationships yet, I know now.
I need to learn to love.
To be there at the shortest time when she needs me.
Not to care to much what people say on our relationship.
To make her feel that she's the most special girl in this whole wide world.
To sing to her, giving her surprises, to make her happy.
To take responsibility and..
To be mature.

I am going to learn, to love, to be mature and to be a gentleman. I made a promise to her that, I'm going to be single until the 2nd year of university life, until I met the one i love. But I know..
I loved her, and I love her.

She is so special to me, although the ways I expressed them are not the ways she wanted.
She's my everything, my breathe to live, but I know there's no going back.

If you're not ready for a relationship, please don't get into one.
You might destroy someone's life.
Always treat your love ones as they're the most special ones in your life.

Random shot at my college, smile.

I should, although I've lost my love one.

Friends, are the best when you're single or not.

The Three Boys - The Star Youth Carnival Talent Search

萧煌奇-你是我的眼(SUPERSHELHIEL cover)

第三章：青春恋。

男孩走到了一个比伊甸园还要更美的地方。
他坐了下来，似乎在想着东西。


一个短发的可爱女孩来在他的后面，爽快地坐了下来。
女孩名杨雁逸，男孩名赵嗪噱。


她有动人的双眸，白皙的肌肤，脸上更是有着天真无邪的笑容。
她的一个简单的微笑，可以让周围的时间停止，然后全世界便注目在女孩身上，更衬托出女孩的独特气质及魅力。
她的微笑，能让僵局的气氛变得暖和，让黑白的画面露出了炫丽的颜色。
她的嘴唇宛如五月刚开的花蕾那般红，乌黑秀发比婴孩的头发还柔顺。
她的美，不是装出来的，也不是妆出来的。




她就是那么美丽。
有谁不会喜欢她呢？


男孩惊讶不已，毕竟他已经暗恋她三年了。错，应该说男孩爱着她好久了。


在校园里，男孩是个才华洋溢的学生。他外表还好，成绩不错，而且精通才华十八般武艺。自称音乐人的他，台上永远少不了他的踪影，听到嗪噱这个名字，有谁不认识他的。
加上他开朗疯癫的豪迈性格，使他时常受同学们的欢迎。这样的男生在女生面前，应该会主动搭讪而甜言蜜语，轻而易举赢起芳心吧？


反之，男孩在他喜欢的人面前完全是另一个模样。
他变得无比羞涩，沉默，说话也吞吐，小动作也多得不得了。是个非常害羞被动的男孩。
而且每当看到那女孩，他总是心跳乱了节奏，超级热血沸腾了起来，甚至几乎勃起，只因为嗪噱很喜欢她。


“雁……逸？”男孩羞涩地说。
“嗯，是我啊。”女孩。


双方都沉默寡言，好像在比《谁先说话就输》的幼稚游戏。嗪噱却不知道，女孩其实也有喜欢他。
沉默的时候，很多小秘密都一一被发现。例如：原来嗪噱紧张时会咬手指；而雁逸爱花，因为她一直向着一片壮观的花海望去，这只是嗪噱的猜测。


“今天的天空很美丽。”女孩。
“……还是你比较美丽。”男孩忍不住了。
“哈哈哈哈哈哈哈……”


他们俩咯咯地笑了起来，开始聊着他们有趣的中学生涯，嘻嘻哈哈的，很像具有电影情节的爱情故事。
那是他们第一次说话，不，应该说第一次正式说话。因为同班的嗪噱只曾经跟对她说的话只有：“现在……几点了？”“下一节什么老师？”“可以借我你的功课一下子吗？”
谈话中，了解了女孩更多了，她的样子实在可爱。
原来，雁逸是那么可爱的，男孩更加更加喜欢她了。




说累了，也笑累了，女孩一不小心就坐不稳，头跌躺在男孩的肩膀上。有这么巧！？




男孩顿时招架不住。他心中最美丽的女生，现在正在他身旁靠着他的肩膀！
心跳加速。
这一幕是他每一天晚上梦到的完美幸福画面，梦里的画面很模糊，但如今是在清晰得不得了。






是他们被月老的神秘红线绑住了吗？
是女孩被丘比特的无敌爱箭射中了吗？
是因虔诚信仰上帝赐下来的幸福吗？




爱情就像乘法，有一方为零再怎么乘，结果都是零。
但他们各是0.5，加起来成为完美的1。
嗪噱万万没想到，不是他努力的找幸福，反之幸福是走着向他而去的。
他望着天，眼眶竟然洋溢着感动的泪光。
他认为这一点也不荒唐，是上天天衣无缝的安排。他的头也轻轻靠在雁逸的头上。
有时，那三个字不用说，也能够从内心最深处真诚地传达到对方心里。


他们就这样，一直到夜晚。那晚也有流行雨的出现，月光也很亮，把女孩的轮廓照得很清楚，她真的很美丽，也很甜蜜幸福。
他们闭眼许了同一个愿望，希望他们一直一直一直一直都能够在一起。








好单纯，世界上很难再看到那么纯真的爱情了。


丘比特好像给了男孩一个点子。
男孩随手拿了一朵不知名的缤纷鲜花：“你的头过来。”红花插在女孩头发上，女孩美得如上世纪的经典美人，害羞得红着脸撒娇，毕竟她从未感到那么幸福。


几年里，男孩时常用木吉他自弹自唱着自创的情歌给女孩，女孩什么都没想，微笑静默在幸福的音乐里。
女孩也时常给男孩带来惊喜，有一次做了美味的汉堡给嗪噱。一向来一根青菜也不吃的他，硬着头皮大口大口的咬了下去，另一手不忘了比老招牌“GOOD”的手势。女孩笑得合不拢嘴。


他们认为爱情只有那三个字，就是一切，太太太太单纯了，却单纯得可爱、幸福。
他爱她，她爱他。


“对于世界而言，你是一个人；但是对于某个人，你是他的整个世界。”








三年后，不知名的地方，但是比伊甸园更优美的地方。
雁逸：“公，如果我死了，你会怎样？”
嗪噱：“不要学那些韩剧里的对白讲话好不好？”
雁逸：“说嘛。”她可爱地吐了舌头，看到她的模样，你不说都会心酸。
嗪噱说：“我会哭死去。”
雁逸：“都不认真，哼。”
嗪噱：“那你呢？我死了你会怎样？”
雁逸：“嗯……我会把你的手，放在我的肩膀上，这样就可以一直躺在你的怀里……”
接着，就是一个深情的长吻。


“我爱你，不是因为你是一个怎样的人，而是因为我喜欢与你在一起时的感觉。”










但是，恐怖的事情发生了，就连嗪噱也不敢相信……

待续。